This is a strange week in Scruggsland.  The scrugglet that is normally the one that is active and healthy was brought down by strep.  It is different staying home with a weak with fever boy, instead of a frustrated girl in pain.  He is a loving boy who wears his heart on his sleeve and is always active, except for today. He is always so strong and helpful that I worry that … [Read more...]

  Steps towards healing after Pregnancy Loss From June through August, I was a woman on fire.  My workouts were showing results.  I consistently worked out...a miracle. I followed my clean eating plan religiously.  I even won a workout challenge giveaway due to my progress and dedication.  I looked great and felt great.  I achieved my goal of being healthier and fit … [Read more...]

  Motherhood isn't all sunshine, lollipops, and rainbows.  I am ashamed to say that when I used to daydream about being a "Mommy," I pictured a glowing version of myself looking down lovingly on my newborn.  That did happen, during the few seconds of the day when my colicky firstborn wasn't crying.  The one thing I did not fully realize was how much GUILT is a part of … [Read more...]

  A Return to Writing I started out a writer.  I toiled hours in my room typing on my dad's Apple IIC (yes--I am that old).  I remember my first broken heart--when that Apple exploded and took 300 pages of the book I had spent the entire summer writing with it into oblivion.  Yet--I continued to write.   I was selected for a college scholarship and job which … [Read more...]

  I've been 36 years old for two weeks.  Two long weeks.  Two weeks that I would give back if I could... I learned that life could change and yet stay the same in one awful moment and that the change could make each second of normalcy feel like a stab in the heart.  I know many, many women close to me that have gone through pregnancy loss and I am stunned by how strong … [Read more...]